October 11, 2026
I have SUPER RELAPSED for 11 days now. It started in the first day of the month .
It started with just watching Youtube videos every night, to watching Youtube shorts, to Facebook reels.
I am really struggling to remove my phone addiction.
It us my coping mechanism to stress and boredom.
But hey, let’s not worry about my past action/relapse. what’s important is we bounce back and stop this bad habit streak as soon as possible…
I have been installing these apps and deleting it constantly from the past few days. It has really been my coping mechanism to stress. It makes my brain rest from my anxiety, worries and responsibilities.
What has changed throughout the year is that I don’t spiral to self-destruction and despair when I relapse.
Before, when I relapse, I will still continue doom-scrolling, just because I already “started” it and will make excuses to myself to continue scrolling, until I spiral out of control. Until I won’t noticed that I have spent a whole week being unproductive and just lived in front on my phone for weeks.
October 15, 2026
As of October 15, 2026, this super relapse still continues. It has been stressful lately from handling our group OJT, Thesis, other academic commitments and etc.
I need to find a new alternative, to this addiction. An alternative that can make my brain turn off, and makes me not think about my stress, even a little bit, while it is being accesible to me everywhere like my phone.
hmmm may be e-reading? or doodling. Let’s see….
but as of writing this, I promise myself to stop this current streak, atleast for this month!
